
It’s 3:33 am. Why am I awake? I wonder. I go to the bathroom, do my business and return to my cozy warm bed. J sleeps next to me, arms wrapped around a pillow, he looks so child-like. I curl next to him to sleep.
BAM! My mind shifts into overdrive, going from 0 to 60 in 3 seconds.
The day’s events race through my mind. The angry driver who followed me because he thought I cut him off, what if he had a gun? What would I have done? Maybe I would be dead. It was a mistake, unintentional. Why get so angry?
What was the story with the barefoot child I saw being dragged along the street? Who had her hand, sister or mother? No, not her mother, she was too young. Where were her shoes and coat, it’s cold? Maybe I should have stopped them. Why didn’t I?
I look at the clock, it’s 3:53 am. I hear a sound – click, click, click – over and over. Is that the furnace? I get up and check the other rooms. Yes, it’s there too. Why hasn’t J called the serviceman? He said he would. What if it quits? We can’t afford to replace the furnace. It stops, but with my mind still racing I listen. Then it starts again. What if it catches fire? Are there batteries in the smoke alarms? How can I sleep? I need to sleep.
The clock says 4:27 am, my mind has exhausted itself from Overthink. I drift back into a cozy, warm sleep.
Posted in response to gc and Sue’s Wednesday Challenge – Overthink.
Has this ever happened to you? Are you able to put the brakes on when it happens? Or do you just wait to run out of gas?
This is literally the story of my life. Once I am awake, it’s game over. I especially hate it when I wake up, my mind starts racing, and then I realize it’s only 1:00.
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Waking up after just a few hours means a very bad night.
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Oh, yes… middle of the night and the mind goes begins to wander. Mine frequently jumps into the past to remind me of events I’d rather forget! 🙂
Thank you for taking part in our challenge, Judy
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Oh yes, events from the past and they seem so much worse in the middle of the night.
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Yes!
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